Well, let me be honest: I would like it to be a ritual, but I am not that disciplined as a rule, so it's more "a thing I do randomly, when I remember."
And basically, I just took that moment and let myself be completely blissed out by the good stuff in my life.
A while back, I was dating someone, but we had to end the relationship due to external factors that were beyond our control. It was very difficult and painful, and complicated by the fact that we both still cared very much for one another and didn't really want to split up.
Also, we are friends.
Very complicated and awkward and strange.
At any rate, we still talk regularly and we've both touched on missing that emotional intimacy and connection. And yesterday, I found out that the external forces have kinda...
Well, they're no longer there. We have the freedom to explore our connection and see where it goes, freely and without constraint. It's been a long time coming, and while I know it is susceptible to going off the rails - what isn't, when it comes to human interaction? - right now, I am so grateful for this opportunity.
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